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I was swimming.  I was fighting. And then i thought, just for a second I thought, "whats the point?" And then i let go I stopped fighting. - Meredith grey, Greys Anatomy S3

I wasnt looking for anything at all when i met you. I wasnt planning on falling for anyone so soon. But then i met you, and that was it, i guess things just happened. I found you and i found myself slowly wanting to spend time with you.  It was simple, it was easy. And i think thats how the best relationship begin. You are not looking for anything, then suddenly you realize you have something. But the unfortunate happened. Im sorry for hurting you while I was hurting, too. cr. tiktok @3mptyb0y

My hearts a stereo It beats for you, so listen close Hear my thoughts in every note Make me your radio Turn me up when you feel low This melody was meant for you Just sing along to my stereo

At this age, life should not be about falling in love and finding your soulmate but about studies and priorities. But and auntie told me, "its okay to fall in love at 16 because one day, when you've reached your dreams and you're alrdy 30, you can never love the way how your teenager self did."  And my lola also told me, "maybe it sounds stupid but trust me, the love you give at the age of 16 might also be the purest love you can give in your lifetime." cr. tiktok @lykajane1014

Understand that i cannot love you right now, because there are still days when im at war with myself and too afraid to show you how heavy that is. So for now, i need to carry it alone.  Maybe one day i can love you, but first, let me love myself.  cr. tiktok @wassab3ee

I am finally creating this blog after days of procrastination, like usual. Hopefully this platform will help me to sort out all my unspoken thoughts. 💪